City Girl vs Country Gal

I've been single now for quite awhile, and since the economy has left me unemployed at the same time, I have a lot of free time to think and examine myself. Considering nearly the entirety of my identity was previously based on being in a serious relationship, I've had to start from near scratch just trying to figure out who the hell I am, and learn to love whatever that may be.
Well, I'm doing a great job with that. I'm very confident these days, and I love being single. In the course of "figuring out who I am" there's been one topic in particular that is really difficult for me to sort out.
Am I a city person or a country/suburb person? Considering I don't drive, it is obvious that being in the city gives me a lot of freedom. Getting a license though wouldn't be hard for me, as I know how to drive and just need to learn how to park really. So I've forced myself to not consider the driving issue here, to imagine living in the country/suburbs and being able to drive. When I lived in the city before, I was very flawed in my behavior. I'd get bad anxiety and not leave the apartment for days, sometimes weeks. I feel like living out here in CT, as I am right now, has given me so much fresh air and time to work on those issues that gave me anxiety, and to build up my confidence. It is hard to be confident when you are just a shell of a person, and I'd like to think that I've really filled in that shell since my last trip to the city.
I don't know. I think I know deep down I've always been a city person, and though I've come to appreciate the beauty of CT and New England, it just isn't for me. I love hiking and being in the woods, but I prefer to walk around for hours in a park and then get out and walk to a coffeeshop or a delicious pizza place and grab a slice, to not feel obligated to wave to people, to be able to blend in or stand out depending on the situation or mood I'm in. I don't really have that option here. I stand out even when I pretend to be suburban and dress in American Eagle and put my hair in a ponytail.
The problem is that being here for so long has led me to meet amazing people. I don't view my stay here as permanent, even when I try to. I promised myself I would not compromise anything of value to me for a relationship ever again, and I'm afraid that a lot of amazing people here in CT that could be potential lovers hate the city. The problem with CT is that most of the artistic, creative people here are very into nature and quiet or being able to stand out easily. I LOVE nature, really, I do, but I appreciate it most when it's a small park surrounded by tall skyscrapers. When it's special. My favorite thing when I was a kid was hiding under a blanket inside by the window on a rainy day. I felt a sense of being protected, comforted, sheltered. To me, that's what urban parks are. You can see the city, hear it, and it's banging on the window and setting the mood, but it can't get in.
I'm really afraid of meeting someone here and falling in love and convincing myself that I'm some country or suburban girl. I need to focus on getting myself back to the city. It's important to me. And I know that once I get there, I will just bitch and moan about it, but I think that in a way that's a kind of similar trait among New Yorkers... like you bitch about parking or you bitch about the subways or some homeless dude that pooped on the platform next to you, but really you love your city and it means a lot to you, and all the annoyances, big and small, really add character to the city. I need to get back. I need to focus on that.