My life is really, really weird right now... I don't mind it, I'm having a pretty good time, but my god, shit is strange. I can't really write about it here, though I want to, just for the sake of advice and getting things out, but a blog is public enough, and some of the things on my mind shouldn't really be told to anyone besides a best friend over cocktails, a la Sex in the City.
But there is one thing I must record, just so when I screw it up, I can go, aha, I meant to remember that: I got to try taking things slow.
There are problems with that, however. I don't want to be in a relationship right now, so taking things slow when I only want casual things doesn't really make sense. I got to find a way to make things not go so fast that it ruins everything, self-destructs, but not so slowly that it is mind-games and develops into actual... feelings and stuff. I don't know, this stuff really doesn't make sense to me. But hey, it's worth a try.
An interesting note: I found out today that somebody I had a big crush on in high school who I was too shy to ask out myself and had others do it... turns out they never actually asked him, though they came back saying that he said no.
Man, high school...
I follow Gossip Girl religiously, and lately I've been thinking that my life is like the poor college version of Gossip Girl, and as one of my favorite people told me very recently, I am 70% Serena and 30% Blair.
This blog is almost pointless, I feel, because I have no idea who reads it, and I'm in enough awkward situations where writing juicy stuff would be a very bad idea. It's a shame, though, I like recording my thoughts and reflecting, but I could always set entries to private, I suppose, but I won't... I'm just going to relax a bit and see what happens.
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